Errrg....

does no one understand my cries?
here is everything that is wrong with me right now.
school isnt going well at all, i do nothing at school.
im probally going to fail my senior year.
i miss my ex girlfriend, ALOT.
we met on the internet 2 years ago.
i love her with every goddamned inch of my heart.
i would do ANYTHING for her.
but ive lost all her trust.
cause sometime last year i was really high.
and had sex with someone.
im addicked to smoking cigs
im addicked to smoking pot
i hate being fat
i hate having acne
i swear im a damn good person inside
but im fucking ugly outside
this is what ive been hiding
these are my fucking problems
every day everyone thinks im ok
but inside all this shit is tearing me apart
everyone gives me answers to all this shit
but im too lazy and put forth no effort
to do almost anything anymore
i hate high school
i want to be a video game programmer
i want to make music with lots of energy
i want to live my dream
but i do nothing, nothing at all